This is really the only place left that I can vent to a seemingly public source and not have to worry about everyone I know reading the damn thing at the same time. It's strange, wanting everyone to know how much you hate everything that's going on and how much you need their help, but simultaneously wanting them all to think that you're strong enough to handle it on your own. Between Morgan leaving me, not finding a job, Preston moving out and Tom an Co. moving to California in a few months, I've honestly never felt more alone. Sure, I still have the noobs crew and zae, but it's different now. Especially since Morgan's gone. She completely changed my life, and I wish that there was something I could do to bring her back, but I'm completely helpless to it. And it came out of nowhere as well, one day she tells me she loves me and has no intention of leaving me anytime soon, and the next thing I know she's dropping my stuff off at my house and telling me it's over. Heh, It's kinda funny really. She doesn't know, I can't afford to let her know either, but after I promised her I wouldn't drink due to the breakup, I started smoking instead. I know it's not healthy, but... at this point I don't really even care. I've always loved the smell anyway, guess I'm just weird like that. Speaking of, time for me to go shower and go somewhere for the day... don't know where yet, but I'll figure that out later.

Here's to heartbreak, loss, and worst of all - loneliness in a sea of faces.